Dear God, It’s been a while since I’ve had the energy to post anything. Much to my surprise, everything still feels overwhelming. I do have to admit that some things have gotten better, though. Shortly after I stopped drinking and started attending AA, I stopped hating myself, which is a victory all by itself. WhatContinue reading “The Strange Way That Things Get Better”
Category Archives: Family of Origin Issues
On Such A Night As This…
God, I did it! I have been so afraid of doing anything in public with other people, afraid of going to dinner with anyone other than my husband P or my kids. Basically I am afraid of doing anything that will bring me in contact with alcohol when there won’t be anyone with me whoContinue reading “On Such A Night As This…”
Sorry. I Have Mommy Issues
Dear God, Well, for someone who was wondering about stored up emotions, I do believe I have found a few that were stuffed in a drawer or something, because I was a hot mess this last weekend. Basically, my mom decided to do her ‘bad daughter, guilt, guilt!’ thing with me. My mom learned toContinue reading “Sorry. I Have Mommy Issues”
On Being Invisible and the Bendable Truth
Dear God, Sobriety, as I understand it right now, involves getting honest with myself and with others. It involves learning to speak difficult truths about myself to myself and to at least one other person. I am also beginning to realize that it involves speaking my truth to other people, especially when I find myselfContinue reading “On Being Invisible and the Bendable Truth”
Ditching The Wine Press 